just not right

Let it go,
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don’t you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in,
Let your clarity define you
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain

Let it slide,
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine
Until you feel it all around you
And i don’t mind
If it’s me you need to turn to
We’ll get by,
It’s the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain

All of my regret
Will wash away some how
But i can not forget
The way i feel right now

In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours, still remain,
Still remain
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders still remain

Saw you come home early this morning …Straight from somewhere you come rockin’ up in a me
…Later on you’ll be tellin’ me stories
…Can you really tell me where you’re coming from?
…Seen your phone bill, who you been callin?
…Don’t try to fool me when I ask what’s up
…cause boy you know me I’m too good, I know you’re being phoney…

Don’t say another word before I mess you up

Oh now
, tell me who’s that bitch I see climbing out your window

Oh, hell, no,
I think I seen her face almost everywhere that we go

Oh, hell, no, say it to my face, why hesitate, wanna know

Oh, oh, oh
, Thought you’d get away boy, sorry I don’t think so!

Smell you wearing new cologne lately
…Walk into the room and you be smellin’ up in a me
…New clothes you were never this trendy
…Could never get you shopping now you shop to drop
…I think ya, so stupid acting all shady
…Try’na tell me lies but you be trippin up you see ya
…No good at the creeping thing baby

Don’t say another word before I mess you up!

I can’t believe what you did to me
Down on my knees and I need to break free
All these years, you violated me (violated me)

I don’t know why i can’t feel inside
Trying to hide, can’t make it all right
It’s overkill, now I’m ready to fight (ready to fight)

I don’t need nobody trying to make me over (make me over)
I just wanna live simple and free
I just wanna get away
Savin all your bullshit for another day

Feeling confined, like I’m being force fed
My vision’s blurry and I’m lost in regrets
It’s overload, and I’m out of control (out of control)

Sick and tired, I feel so misused (feel so misused)
Taking me down with all your mental abuse
And I said, I gotta get you out of my head

Everybody’s always trying to look me over (look me over)
I just wanna live simple and free
I just wanna get away
Savin all your bullshit for another day
I’m the only one who can rescue me from me

Leavin’ the house around a quarter to five
zipped up my boots and I’m ready to ride
And I feel so high, I feel so alive

Let down my hair, feel the wind on my skin (wind on my skin)
crossin’ the border where my new life begins
And I close my eyes and take it all in

I don’t need nobody trying to make me over (make me over)
I just wanna live simple and free
I just wanna get away
savin all your bullshit for another day
I’m the only one who can rescue me from me

I just wanna get away
savin it, all your bullshit, for another day
I’m the only one who can rescue me from me

You wanna bring me down
You wanna bring me down
You wanna bring me down
You wanna bring me down                        

i’m stressed.

in my heart, i’m angry. y do things alike this happen to me? when i have tons of work to do, when all i need is understanding, when all i wanted a little less judgment. i’m burdened enough with things at hand, why should worry about future troubles…

let me take things one by one.

sometimes i wish i cud get away… like to another place n time. where ppl don’t think i’m stupid, or selfish, or a joke.

i did not wish for things to happen to me, i did not pull it to me, i also i did not see it as a burden. i know that i’m a strong person who can face anything. i know that if i cud face trough this, in the end i will be fine.

what troubles me is that judging eyes, the voices who despairs me, the impatience in some. especially loved ones. i wish i could just break free, maybe fly to a foreign land.

i always tell myself to be understanding towards other people… can i pull trough this too?

And all I see is a less-good version of a man I don’t want to be! All I feel is you tying me down to something that just isn’t real and all I need is some truth, God help me before the devil buries me

I can’t do nothing if I can’t do something my way…
Well I must be crazy if I follow every word you say!
When the shit comes down you’ll be the first to walk away.
Call the police, coz I’ve lost control and I really want to see you bleed!!!

I’m awake, why wait
I don’t need someone to tell me who to be today

Quite sure, unlike before; came off the road and I forgot what I was looking for…

new year’s here!

its sad that 2007 has finally come to its closure… how my life leap another step. a major one, in this case.

this year has been both good and bad. but what’s good and bad, when they both leads us to the same destiny, the place where we stand right now. the creature we have became.

the last 12 months has been a witness of me tumble and fall, betray and betrayed, laugh and cry, got picked up by a savior, stand up tall, just to fall again, accept and letting go, the fight i had that i will never ever forget and last but not least hand in hand with victory.

i’ve gained so much, yet to come to that, i’ve also lost. the feeing of it, its a different kind of pain because its actually a great feeling to experience. it builds me up, it makes me a stronger person.

so, thank you 2007. ur forever a special place, lost in time, but never forgotten.

…There’s another world inside of me that you may never see,

There’s secrets in this life I can’t hide.

Well, somewhere in this darkness, there’s a light that I can’t find

Well, maybe its to far away, maybe I’m just blind

Maybe I’m just blind,

So hold me when I’m here,

Love me when I’m wrong,

Hold me when I’m scared,

And love me when I’m gone.

Everything I am,

And everything in me,

Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.

I’ll never let you down,

Even if I could,

Give up everything,

If only for your good,

So hold me when I’m here,

Love me when I’m wrong,

Hold me when I’m scared,

You won’t always be there,

So love me when I’m gone.

When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin,

I won’t tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends.

Now roaming through this darkness,

I’m alive but I’m alone,

Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone.

So hold me when I’m here,

Love me when I’m wrong,

Hold me when I’m scared,

And love me when I’m gone.

Everything I am,

And everything in me,

Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.

I’ll never let you down,

Even if I could,

Give up everything,

If only for your good,

So hold me when I’m here,

Love me when I’m wrong,

Hold me when I’m scared,

You won’t always be there,

So love me when I’m gone.

Maybe I’m just blind.

You keep askin’ for my time
You keep tellin’ me, that I’m fine!
Give me your number
I wont call!
Give me your pager too
Not at all will I call, not at all

Not a player - don’t get paid!
I’ll leave you hangin’ for days
Don’t send me flowers, they wont do
Don’t give me diamond rings, cos I’ll take them and call you a fool!

Why’s this fool all up in my ass?
Doesn’t he know I wont class my trash?
Why’s this fool all up in my ass?
Doesn’t he know that I got my own cash?

You want what you cannot have
I know that you want a piece of my ass

I’m all hooked up. You’re outta luck!

Don’t you know that a guy like you wouldn’t last
Look, don’t touch, you’re askin much

This boy wants to play,
There’s no time left today,
It’s a shame ’cause he has to go home. 

This boy’s got to work
Got to sweat just to pay what he gets to get left all alone. 

Well let’s step outside,
Let’s go for a ride,
Just for a while. 
No we won’t get caught,
Well that’s what I thought, until we cry. 

I’m still here,
But it hasn’t been easy,
I’m sure that you had your reasons,
I’m scared for this emotion,
For years I’ve been holding it down,
For years I’ve been holding it down. 

This girl tries her best everyday,
But it’s all gone to waste ’cause there’s no one around,
This girl she can draw she can paint,
Likes to dance she can skate,
Now she don’t make a sound. 

We’ll play in our park,
‘Till it’s too dark for us to see
Well we’ll make our way home,
With mud on our clothes,
She won’t be pleased. 

And I,
Love to forgive and forget,
So I,
Try to put all this behind us,
Just,
Know that my arms are wide open,
The older I get, the more that I know. 

Well it’s time to let this go. 
I got to let it go
I got to let it go
I got to let it go
I got to let it go